Tuesday, June 17, 20083:18 PM
I know its useless but i wouldn't stop & i can't stop.
Knowing it would just bring me the same result, the same answer.
I don't even know what i'm trying to prove anymore.
Why can't i just forget it?
I might run away.
Escape is not the answer but maybe it might lessen my pain for now.
I dreamt of mum yesterday. She was hugging me. I felt so happy because only in the dream do i get to see her, feel her so real wif me. I wish i wouldn't wake up.
This may sound scary but i felt the strong urge to be wif her.
No, i'm not going to kill myself but if she wants me i might have to go.
Maybe its something beyond my control anymore.
Maybe because i'm not feeling well, i'm starting to imagining things..
Frankly speaking i have not been sick for a long time (touch wood)
The inflammation in my throat is quite mild but irritating. i can't stop coughing due to the itch.
I felt lethargic due to the fever so i juz lie on the mattress & start to imagine things.
~ Just blabbering for now.
